This week has been one of those weeks. I've had a sick kid, so I haven't got very much accomplished. I have been doing alot of thinking about my life. I have come to a conclusion that I already knew but sometimes forget. I am very blessed. I have a fantastic husband(even though he scared me so bad yesterday that I cried, I'm so easy to scare). He is so good to me and the kids, he works so hard so that I can live my dream of being a stay at home mom. Then I have two beautiful, smart, sweet, adorable kids. I have wonderful parents, sister, niece, in-laws, friends, and lots of other wonderful people in my life. But above all these listed I have the love of my saviour Jesus Christ. I feel so unworthy at times to be so loved by him. I know that I don't deserve his love and forgiveness, but I'm so glad that I have it.
I am on the road to try to change not only myself but my family. I know I need to start with myself first. I need to read my bible more, which I don't do nearly enough, pray more and let God take over in my life, not try to fix things on my own. One big thing that I need to do is work on contentment. I am always wanting more. I would love to have a bigger home. Our home is really small, two small bedrooms and one bathroom for four people is very small. But I know that we will not be able to afford to add on to our home for several more years and I need to be happy with what I have. So in this year of my trying to get thrifty, I'm also changing other things. I'm striving to be a better child of God, to be a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend. I'm going to try to be happy with whatever I have and thankful for all that I have. I'm going to try to do more and be less lazy and TURN THE TV OFF MORE.... I 'm the queen of my castle, no matter how small my castle is. I'm going to cherish being a homemaker and take my job more seriously, just as I would if I worked a regular job outside the home. This is my job and as everyone knows this job is neverending, no Monday-Friday 9-5, no holidays, sick days or vacations. But this is what I have always wanted, since I was young to be a housewife and have children and take care of my home and husband and kids.
I was just telling my mom about watching Little House on the Prairie with my kids and how much they loved it. My son said that was the best show on t.v. I would have to agree with him on that one I love it and the Waltons. Of course I know that everything wasn't easy, they had no electricity, running water, washing machines, dishwashers, cars, and lots of other things that we take for granted every single day. I know that I wouldn't like to go back to everything like that, especially no electricity and indoor plumbing, but it would be so nice if times could be that simple again. Not worrying about how big your home is, which car to drive, having the nicest clothes, sending your kids to the best schools, going on fancy vacations, and having what everyone else has. They never worried about more than making sure their family was fed, and clothed and loving their family and God. I'm ready to stop trying to have what everyone else has and focus on what we do have. I'm so tired of living paycheck to paycheck and always feeling so stressed about money, when the only reason we do is to have things that we really don't need. I know people say well if you went back to work you wouldn't have to worry about money and they may be right, but I feel that God has given me this opportunity to stay at home and care for my family, and I will do it for as long as he will provide.
This was my little rant for the day, but I felt I needed to say it. If you agree with me or have some ideas on how to simplify my life and live more for my Lord please leave a comment.
Hope you have a wonderfully, blessed day!!
Hebrews 13:5 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." (NIV)